I'm fine with scars , i think .

Wound will slowly heal , but only scars that matters .

Its already a long period of time , but long doesn't mean slow .

So fast , that we have been through it .

Is there anyone will really , accept you , knows you and love you the same exist ?

Yeah there are people like that , but soon will be 'there were' .

A lot of reasons , they changed ? they gone ? they said its over ? they died ?

People come , i just wish they don't have to go .

But one thing i can tell , the love wasnt fake . the happiness and what we have been through .

There is no such thing called 'fake love' , its either yes or no.

I've said yes many time , so it is love .

What's the prove ? I just wish that you can go inside my head and see them .

The memories ? It is just beautiful isnt it ?

Good or bad memories with all of them , it is just beautiful i would say.

Are we gonna torn apart ? I say no , but what do you say ?

Are you strong enough and have faith to say no ?

No matter what your answer is ,
I will keep you in my heart with all those memories ,
I will be there anytime when you need me or my ears .

Lastly , i will look at the stars and wish you guys are always safe and sound .
Hope the stars tell me you do .

That's what a lone-ranger or a broken man does.
Have to do that from now on .

-ahYang-

SPM LA BONGOK!

Shit la . No worries the title is referring to myself . haha.

At least i did study today but ITS NOT ENOUGH after i had so much fun the previous week. = =

One of my favourite picture of that day . =)

Yeah my birthday + AAR + Halloween day! What a clash.

We had fun but i tell you , this thing is free which caused alot of UNCIVILISED people were there . Before AAR came out we were truly pissed and emo cause of waiting and those typical Malays .

Anyway AAR rocks afterall that really make all our patience worth it.

Concert finished at 11.30+ we were dead tired and can't walk anymore. EXHAUSTED

Plan to get free drink but end up taking picture .

The ground is damn cun . K.O!

Weird thing now is no one is online o.0?

DIE DIE DIE! I must study . Just 2 more weeks la!

Just faster get myself study until tired then sleep sleep sleep! And 2 weeks will be gone. x)

-ahYang-

Papadom.

Here we go , tak pergi sekolah .. lepak kat old town and watch PAPADOM!

Hahaha , well cause we were too boring . School is busy with testimonials thingy . Bla bla and bla

So far , the best local movie ever done . =D touching story and its really nice for US as Malaysian.

I was touched and my eyes abit abit watery la , so i was busy body to look at others =D

They were touched too , SOMEONE CRIED! hahahahahahaha i don't wanna mention who's that.

Later he shy =D

Well at least i pay off what i did today , went for tuition and study at this HOUR . From 12.30- 3am =)

PS: FOR THE PIG WHO'S READING THIS! =D My blog is always HOT AND FRESH than yours =DDDDDDDDDDDDD BOOOO YOU

' I remember the smile you gave , for the first time when we met . The little angel's eyes you have , i think i never ever forget . '

-ahYang-

Just 5 minutes ago.

I was normal and starting to be cheerful after so many things that happened lately ..

This video came up and really makes me cried ..

You guys can search about ' A very touching story , Going Home '

It reminds me bout her ..

Reminds me , that i din't treat her the best as a grandson ..

I always wonder , Poh ..

Did you carry me when i was a baby ? or a lil child ?

Did i sleep on your arms before ? Did you kiss on my cheek before ?

Although i don't know that did you , but if Poh did ..

I can pictures how it feels .. Can God take me back once more and let me feel it ?

Feel the love she gave me once more , could you ? God ?

-ahYang-

Today is Not My Day

I'm already trying to push aside every stressful thing and stay positive .

Already kinda moodless when i lost my calculator , now its really near to SPM .
I have to spend another 50 bucks to buy one ? Wtf ? I don't know why la you guys got the habit to grab people's thing home.

Moodless , but i also try to move on like normal .. Study , try to find my calculator back ..
Telling myself , i don't wanna make myself miserable .. It will be fine .. okay
Then why must people around you make you like an idiot too ?

I din't voice out , but no one would know how i feel ..
I asked and comfirmed , pretty sure of it ..
I even assumed that i heard wrongly and went to find you guys ..
Even if cannot contact me i don't mind . Do you know im on my way ?
12.30pm school ends ? Do you know i only walk not fly ?
Why must i be the one left behind ? Why no one would care where am i ?

I just wish that , i could have went home and all these would not happen ..

It does not shows , but it does hurts ..

Maybe God is telling not to find so much entertainment while SPM is near ,
furthermore i'm really moodless and need to chill ..

So coming birthday ? Nah forget it .. i don't need celebration ..
How about AAR concert ? Anyone wants the ticket? i seriously don't need it ..
Anyone need it , just tell me ..

No birthday , no more favourite superstar ..

-ahYang-

I said I know

Ahhh , i'm totaly dead tired .
This week is actually a week to fix everything to normal in your academic like what Yap said.
Yeah so i am fixing and meanwhile also got back some results which some i satisfied some i got shocked .

Well , tell you the difference world between you and the outside world .
Sometimes they just make me think that i am very stupid compared to them .
I know that , i know that you put effort but doesn't mean stupid people don't put effort.

You can chop my head down if you say everyone is the same .
You can even kill my whole family if you say everyone's perfect .

You're potential and plus youre super hardworking which makes you success ,
I am stupid but i gained , no matter i sacrificed alot or little i WILL still try and not give up.
Maybe what i gained is not what YOU THINK is an achievement , fine your wish.

Just to tell you ,

Stupid people do gain something , i would like to admit that im one of those stupid people .
Funny that they are still some stupid people who are similar to me , we don't like to give up .

For my pig sister =)

MSN can sometimes really get your nerves on!
If someone need to send something urgent ah , you'll be the number .1 spoiler ..
Blarddddy MSN .. anyway i just hope blogspot will be my saviour today =DD

Here is it , =D i know you got exams and don't know when you can watch this .
Just remember to check it out la . =D
Most of you already met her through webcam or even for real =D

Time is beating our hearts.

Nah , not gonna say anything about why am i dumping this blog for so long .
Probably is the lazyness of the owner =D

Alah , now i'm back alright .
How am i suppose to blog when i sit at home everyday ? = =
Blog about what i eat ? tv show i watch ? ish .

Well when youre free , definitely you'll think! Is it true ? Haha
Just a month plus to go , to gain my freedom , to see a bigger world outside .
But i do not want to leave what i've gained now . =/

I definitely don't like to stuck at one corner and make my life miserable .
I moving on all the time , but not without you all .

Sometimes , wondering how to tell people outside how cool we are .
What wonderful things we've done , what sorrows and circumstances we been through before .
I got a mouth , tongue , throat and my voice and i even know words!
The combination just cannot describe how wonderful it is .

For example ?
Whenever i pass by Hotel Angsana ,
it reminds me of an incident. Or perhaps how naive and silly we were .

'Excuse me , can i know whats your budget ?'
'eerrr how about 1k plus ?'
'Each seat is about RM51'

That's the joke but no one will know .But me and you .

How do you wanna live your life ?
I don't know , .... actually i do know but who's with me ?

Do you prefer to say bye-bye ? or see ya ? or Im going ?
I will say something but not these . i hate it =)

Why do i hate these phrases ?
Because i've heard enough.

But right now , the time is going fast and alot people treat this as a trend .
Time doesn't matter that much but as long as we were together that time ..
Why a person would say all these ? because you all came to my life ?

I don't know how you gave me those good memories ,
how you take care of me , how we made this far , how you make me remember you ..

I just hope i did the same to you guys sometimes ..
I really hope that you guys remember me ..
Time is really beating our hearts dude .
Whenever you need me , yes! I'll be there.
Not my physical presence but maybe my heart.

My conclusion is .............

I'm always here waiting for you to come and hug me =DDDDDDDD

ps: Pls don't kiss la if youre a boy .=)

-ahYang-

It came true.

Don't get me wrong. It is the thing that i don't want to happen but it came ..

I was nervous the day before ,
I was pissed before it starts ,
I was scared to see the fact ,
and i was useless for the entire event .

God always help those who work hard and putting effort .
This was not a success , which proven that my hardwork is not really hardwork .

It has come to an end , no one i should say to be blame among us .
But i wanted to say ,

Sorry Gong gong and poh poh , i always tell you in my dream that i will do what i believe like you said. I dream big , but it failed like you can see yesterday . I bet gong gong and poh poh were there. I'm sorry .

Sorry to my parents and teachers , i'm sorry to sacrificed so much time for the things that i wanna do. I couldn't make you all proud but i made a promise that after the 18th , i'm gonna come back to studies in whatever condition i am right now .

Sorry to my gang , dear fella johannians .. I tried my very best to play my own role and contribute everything for my last year during this high school life. Never thought that i planted some bad memories inside your head. I'm so useless , i tried ... seriously was trying to make a difference although we all know we were losing. I'm sorry that this was not a success , i disappoint St.John , my fella friends and Cik Farah .

Sorry to all the audiences and some were my friends .. I really appreciate very much that you guys came and support , and some of you din't inform us that you guys are coming .. Really good to see you all . I'm sorry that i couldn't put up a nice show to amaze you guys .I'm sorry , really sorry.

The day that i thought it would be the last enjoyment that i can have before struggles for SPM , the day that i thought everybody will be cheered and the day we always dream about and glory.

Which all turned the other way round.

Thank you ,
Dear to be the 1st one who listened to me ,
Bryan for talking to me ,
Fiona and Yap for tapping my shoulder and comfort me ,
Pavin for the hug ,
Ed Lee for sharing ,
Edward and Munfei for lying together on the road for 30secs ,
Firdaus & Sarveen to smile the whole day for emcee ,
Daniel , Andrew with Wanted Symphony for the good show .

I appreciate it very much .

Look into the sky
Can you see the moon across the ocean
Coming close to me
I can hear the melody

Cry into the void
Let my voice become the hand that reaches
Out to you and leads
To my long lost memory

Carry me home
I lost my way on roads ever weaving
Home
Where darkness fades and hearts are ever believing
Carry me home
I close my eyes and cling to you ever dreaming
Find me
Oh don't forget the child for whom you are grieving

Voice that calls from there
And the footsteps of its fallen angels
Now becomes the beat
Of my heart so incomplete

Every night I bathe
In the blue that washes over me
And brings me to my knees
In this longing I believe

Carry me home
I lost my way on roads ever weaving
Home
Where darkness fades and hearts are ever believing
Carry me home
I close my eyes and cling to you ever dreaming
Find me
Oh don't forget the child for whom you are grieving

-ahYang-

Malas .

You know why , cause i'm too lazy and too tired to blog .. LOLS everyday i can say ..

Life still going on ..

To update you guys that what special things i did , went SPCA for community service of our Interact Club . You can go to Fiona's blog and have a look .

PEOPLE! Pls do come to SJI's IU Day .

Venue: Muzium Telekom
Time:2.30pm - 5.30pm
Theme: Past , Present & Future
Entry Fee: Rm10
Dress code: Smart Casual / Interact Club Shirt



This is Muzium Telekom , no worries. It is near my school . =)


Following thing was , MJ RIP .
Sad , I listen to his songs when i was standard 4 like that .
My dad influenced me ..

The 1st song i listened was Earth song , then beat it .. Billie jean , smooth criminal and follows on .. He is amazing , and without realising people .. He did alot to his family and friends most importantly to the world , us ..

The world loves him , R.I.P MJ . You're Not Alone .


Michael Jackson number.1 , He is the legend who created history . I hope the world stop sadding and mourning bout him , he wants the world to move on . Let him be the 1 we should learn from.

The tv and news were saying . MJ changed the world . Thank you. The Earth Song , Top1 songs out of the list of 40 songs of MJ .

The next thing was TRANSFORMER 2 =)

Is awesomeeee , i rate it 9/10 becaused it somehow CUT abit la in TGV . If it is Gsc i think they cut even more . Why la just because Megan Fox is hot .. ISSH Malaysia's cinema .

Those who like it since last year , i advice you all must experience it in the cinema =) awesome.

The last thing i wanted to say is tadaaaaaa!

MAAF! NO.IC 921031-14-XXXX bla bla bla tidak terpilih dalam Latihan Khidmat Negara siri ke-7 . I hope i get to see the result in newspaper , waiting for it .. and if it is super trueee ..

Im gonna jump for joy! =D

Orh ya i also went Cheer Comp today .

1st , Blitzer.(ops)
2nd , Shirtliff
3rd , The pink colour want i forgot.
4th , not sure .
5th , neh last year they fell down want.

Charlotte says.

That's all and i got abit fluu now .. OMYGOSH DEAR!

-ahYang-